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October 16th, 2006
11:58 pm - Wilmer Valderama on Yo Momma!!!!!!
It's almost time! i'm so excited!
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May 14th, 2006
08:56 pm - wow
i haven't updated this since november... nice.
i'm lonely, bored, anxious, a.d.d, sad, dirty, among other things. i want some attention.
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November 7th, 2005
10:42 pm - life is hard sometimes.
So, i'm in the middle of making 2 very important decisions. well actually one, since i've already decided the other one. The first being that when my lease is up in January, i'm moving in with my dad until august to pay off my credit cards and save up some money and go on some vacations and stuff. It took a lot out of me just to ask him if i could live with him, but i was happy to find out that he didn't make any deal of it at all other than to say that Durden can't come, which makes me sad... As sad as it makes me to have to move back in with my parent after living on my own for a year and a half, i think it's the best thing to do right now, and it's only for 7 months, then i'm out again and for real. This is a one time thing and it won't happen ever again.
The second decision, and the harder of the 2 is that i might be dropping out of school. I have no motivation to go anymore. I'm going to fail 2 of my 4 classes, one of which i've taken twice, the other 3 times. The only thing that's really keeping me there is my family... they're so proud of me for staying in school and doing "well" and it kills me to have to tell them that i'm going to drop out. I kept telling myself that i'm just going to stay in and get my degree, but the more i think about it, the more i feel like it's just holding me back from what i really need to be doing. Most people won't understand this, i know. but, i think, that what i want to do with my life needs experience more than a degree. Most people in my career field start at my age or younger, and advance by getting as much experience as possible. in school i'm not learning how to book or promote an event, or run a sound board, or set up a stage. I need to get a job where i am learning those things so i can move to california, where the market is large, and get a job rather than look and get discouraged because everyone wants someone with experience, and i'll end up with something low paying, where i'll still have to get a second job. i may have to do that either way, but atleast if i have the experience, i have a chance of getting more of what i want. I don't really know if that makes sense to anyone else, but it makes a lot of sense to me. i'm still going to talk to my mom and my school counselors about it, but chances are, i'm not going to school after december.
<3
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October 31st, 2005
08:07 pm - it's sad that this is what i'm doing on halloween...
current:
• outfit: my salmon shorts, my hellogoodbye shirt, and my pink star belt
• hairstyle: same ol'
• jewelry: black cuff, earrings...
• underwear: tighty whitey
• nail color: nail color.
do you:
• cut yourself: uh.. no man, gross.
• lick yourself: not so much.
• whine a lot: who do you think i am, a cool girl? ok, so i whine sometimes, but who doesn't..?
• yell a lot: i don't know how.
• hate a lot of people: nahhh...
• have too many friends: who can ever have too many friends... unless you're a hermit.
• want to die: no.
• wear dark colors: sometimes.
• dye your hair: yessir
• shave strange places: nah.
have you ever:
• kissed someone: duh.
• worn rainbow: probably
• talked on the phone for over 3 hours: i don't think so.
• left the country: nah. someday.
• had a party with over 30 people: i've been to plenty. one being 2 days ago.
• stolen something: Yahhh
• caught something on fire: yup
• cheated on someone: nope
• wanted to cheat on someone: no.
• asked someone out: no.. i'm too shy for that.
• had a dream, then the next day it happens: i think so.
last person:
• you touched: uhmmm, my brother?
• you talked to: my sisters
• you hugged: uhmmmm sean.
• you instant messaged: ryanTSSA.. he didn't answer... stupid boi
• who broke your heart: everyone breaks my heart.
are you:
• understanding: very.
• open-minded: yes.
• arrogant: nah
• insecure: mehhh i think everyone is at some point
• interesting: sometimes.
• hungry: right now? no.
• smart: a little bit
• moody: yes very.
• childish: sometimes.
• independent: yah, very
• hard working: yes
• healthy: kinda
• emotionally stable: yah, i'd say so.
• shy: yessir
• difficult: not usually.
• attractive: sometimes
• bored easily: sometimes
• thirsty: no.
• obsessive: not always.
• angry: not often
• sad: nah, not today.
• happy: not happy, not sad.. just average today.
• trusting: no.
• ill: nah.
• ignored: nah.
• reliable: yes
• self-disciplined: yes
• sleepy: no, i took a 3 hour nap, before that, yes, very.
• lonely: a lil.
info about yourself:
• what is your birth name? Alyson Marie Pogue
• what is your birthday?: August, 26 1985
• current age?: 20
• how tall are you?:5'4"
• shoe size?: 6 in boys, 8 in girls
• brothers/sisters?: 1 brother, 3 sisters
• job?: gameworks bitch.
favorites:
• what is your favorite band?: i hate that question, becuase i have a lot of them.
• color?: green, teal, red, black, pink.
• soda?: cherry coke
• music?: don't.
• stores in the mall?: wherever i find good stuff that day.
• ice cream?: mint chocolate chip
• roller coaster?: i dunno dude.
• candy?: reeses, and sour strip things.
• cd?: uh,?
• cookies?: soft ones
• juice?: all kinda juices
• holiday?: halloween.
• month?: october and may
in the last week:
• cried?: uhm, no.
• missed someone?: of course
• yelled at someone?: i dunno, yah, i yelled at my brother.
• changed your underwear?: ew, of course.
• drove somewhere?: of course.
• talked to someone on the phone?: yep
• been online?: haha, do you even know me????
• smiled?: i smile almost all day.
• had sex?: nope
• kissed someone?: yes maam
• hugged someone?: yes sir
• last thing you ate?: mac and cheese
• talked to an ugly person?: hahahahahahaaha, what a mean question. yes.
have you ever:
• been in love?: noooo.
• kissed someone of the same sex: hahaha... yah
• been in trouble with the police? uhmmmmmmmmm no.
• hit someone?: duh.
• betrayed a friend?: i don't think so.
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October 24th, 2005
10:41 pm
i'm bored...
How many people have you seriously dated this past year? none!
How many people have you kissed in your life? some.
How many people have you said, "I love you too" and meant it? i don't say it unless i mean it, so i guess just everytime i've ever said it.
Have you ever had a hard time getting over someone? yessir.
Friends with your ex/exes? most of them.
Have you ever cheated on someone? no that's baaaad.
Been cheated on? i don't think so... i hope he didn't do that.
What do you look for in your ideal mate? i look for a lot of things, so let's not go there now.
Do you have morals/beliefs? doesn't everyone?
What do you think of abortion? It should be something deadly, if you're killing a child.
What Did You Do...
Last weekend? sat in my house because i had no car.
Yesterday? uhm worked and then nothing cuz i had no car.
Your last birthday? uhhhhh, went to work and then partied and then partied the next night with section 8
New Year’s Eve? i don't remember, probably partied.
Valentines Day? nothing...? went to school?
4th of July? partied.
Halloween? partied.
Thanksgiving? worked.
Christmas Eve? worked, and then went to my moms.
Christmas Day? opened presents.
Currently...
Who are you talking to? emily and jessie
How is the weather? i'm sure it's a bit nippy, but i'm not outside.
What are you listening to? nothing.
What/Who are you thinking about? shut up.
What are you eating/drinking? nothing.
What are you looking forward to? a few dates in the near future... november 26th... december 10th... february 25..
What are you dreading? doing my homework.
How are you feeling? pretty good. i had a lucky day today.
When Was The Last Time You...
Burped? probably sometime today.
Were Kissed? awww 3 weeks ago or something? i miss sloan.
Went to the movies? fuuuck. i don't remember. it was when we saw the greatest game ever played
Went out to eat? uhm.. i dunno, last week?
Cried? yesterday...i hate crying
Got dumped? uhm.... a year ago?
Dumped someone? a year and a few months ago?
Threw up? ew, when i had the flu like 2 months ago or something.
Went for a walk? yesterday.
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October 23rd, 2005
02:12 pm
i feel unalive right now. i wanna go out and i can't, all i do is sit here and play on myspace and hope that i have friends to talk to every hour of the day. luckily kyle called at 2 this morning and decided he wanted to come over and watch malibus most wanted. so... if anyone else wants to come over... please do it. i like company. hopefully monday, i'll be able to work something out with a car dealership to get a car. if anyone knows of anything where you don't have to pay anything right away, or for 3 months, you should let me know, cuz that's exactly what i need.
kay bye!
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October 21st, 2005
11:46 pm - mall cop is a dick. maybe if he was nice, songs wouldn't be written about him.
today was pretty much just a lame day. i've been super cranky all day. even with a good show. i have no car, i can't get the job i want right now because i can't get there. i have no way of getting to school, i have no way of getting to court on monday. hopefully i can work something out by tuesday. i'm going car shopping hopefully with my dad. and hopefully he can take me to court as well. my car is at garys towing. it will cost me 116.25 to get it out, but now it's 236.25 because every day i don't get it, the price goes up 20 dollars. i don't the piece of shit anymore. i don't have money to take it out of the towing place. i don't hav emoney to fix it. i just want my stuff out of it, and to leave it there.
i'm hungry.
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October 17th, 2005
11:15 pm - the feeling won't go away, it's never taken this long, but i'm not going to give in.
i just did fucking 6 and a half hours of math. non stop. i took like a 15 minute break. my brain almost exploded, and i still only did 3 sections. i have 4 more all due on thursday, plus i'll get more tomorrow. and i still have 2 econ assignments and tons of german to do. i don't think i'm going out tomorrow, but wednesday will be my happy day. it will make all the homework ok, well, not really, but i'll feel better when i get to go to phoenix and see some boys and party. i need call rhino tomorrow and try to get a job. i need to get up early and try to put oil in my car and hope that it fixes it, so i'm going to bed now.
<3
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October 10th, 2005
12:21 am
why does this have to happen.... it sucks.
it'll be over soon. until december, then it will happen again. i'm fucking stupid. mehhhhhh it hurts.
anyway, the weather at night is good. i have to wear a jacket! amazing.
sleep is also amazing.
goodnight.
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October 1st, 2005
08:37 pm
last night was fun, i'm up for another round tonight. even though i feel dead right now. there's a redbull in the office, i'm taking it. that's right, I'M TAKING THE REDBULL IN THE OFFICE. it's sugar free, gross, but whatever. uhmmm i don't really know what else to say because i can't think much right now. so i'll go move the sound equipment back to the back. byeeeeeeeee. haha oh yah, i got really creeped out by this little girl in the arcade a few minutes ago when i was cleaning the birthday party area. she just stood and stared at me. i turned around 3 times. it was like samara, she seriously made my heart race. hahaha god i'm lame bye.
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